if i can’t have you
pairing: peter parker x reader
summary: where you sometimes make out with spider-man and sometimes hang out with peter parker
warnings: it’s REALLY LONG and uh i can’t remember if it makes sense or not
word count: 8.6K
a/n: okay so originally this was for @laureharrier and @tommyparkerr ‘s wc and then i wrote it and i was like this is not at all like the prompt kind of but yes it is as well a little bit. so i’m sorry this is v chaotic but enjoy!
(prompts were “I wanted it to be you so badly” and the song “if i can’t have you” by shawn mendes)
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You awake to the sound of knocking. Not on glass or wood but on metal, cold and hard and emotionless. You crack an eye open at the sound.
Spider-Man is hanging over you, his clothed face mere inches from yours and you start at the sight of him. Your heart speeds and then slows again in an irritating mantra. At the shock sure but the sound of his voice makes your body feel like it’s on fire.
“Hey,” The fabric of his mask stretches, revealing a grin and you shove his face away before pushing yourself up on bruised elbows. He laughs, straightening his spine. “What the hell are you doing out here?”
You could give him the real answer, a straightforward truth- that you fell asleep on your rickety, rusting fire escape with the hope that he would appear- but you could never tell him that for fear of judgment and because he would never let you live it down.
So the answer that’s pulled from you isn’t a complete lie, but it’s barely a truth either.
